exploring self-realization, sacred personhood, and full humanity
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|a project in process until 2022 - 2024, to be completed after the "Evolution" writing; currently, a few chapters, including the K & E dialogues, are available
How is it possible for Twin Soul romantic love to endure for eternity, for ages and eons without end, when its pale earthly counterpart hardly survives the honeymoon?
I am gripped by a loneliness
|I went to the water's edge … I saw my own reflection, I just can't see it now … so I whisper your little secret … I'll save it for you in my heart, in case we both forget, oh, I wish you could wrap yourself around me, I am gripped by a loneliness, oh, I wish you could wrap yourself around me, I'd be released in your tenderness, I saw my life eclipse... and then felt myself slip… oh, I wish you could wrap yourself around me, I am gripped by a loneliness, oh, I wish you could wrap yourself around me, I'd be released in your tenderness
I'd be released in your tenderness
Editor’s note: In “Prometheus” Kairissi and Elenchus had spoken of the possibility of becoming enemies during their Earth-mission but then, "in case we both forget," pledged to recover themselves. This song is about missing someone, of being “gripped by a loneliness.” But before she lost her beloved, she had lost herself, could not recall the water’s reflection-likeness, felt herself "slip" – slip away from herself – and witnessed the "eclipse," the growing sense of darkness, in her own person.
Kairissi and Elenchus: I
Kairissi and Elenchus: II
Kairissi and Elenchus: III
Kairissi and Elenchus: IV
Kairissi and Elenchus: V
I don't have anything, since I don't have you
Since I Don't Have You
I don't have plans and schemes
I don't have hopes and dreams
I don't have anything
since I don't have you
I don't have fond desires
I don't have happy hours
I don't have anything
since I don't have you...
Kairissi and Elenchus: VI
Kairissi and Elenchus: VII
Kairissi and Elenchus: VIII
Kairissi and Elenchus: IX
Kairissi and Elenchus: X
secrets stolen from deep inside, the drum beats out of time
Cyndi Lauper & Sarah McLachlan
Time After Time
|lying in my bed I hear the clock tick and think of you, caught up in circles, confusion is nothing new, flashback, warm nights, almost left behind, suitcase of memories, time after sometimes, you picture me, I'm walking too far ahead, you're calling to me, I can't hear what you have said, then you say, "go slow, I fall behind,” the second hand unwinds, if you're lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time, if you fall, I will catch you, I will be waiting, time after time, after my picture fades and darkness has turned to gray, watching through windows, you're wondering if I'm okay, secrets stolen from deep inside, the drum beats out of time, if you're lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time, if you fall, I will catch you, I will be waiting, time after time, I will be waiting, time after time, I will be waiting, time after time…
I'm walking too far ahead, you're calling to me, I can't hear what you have said, then you say, 'go slow, I fall behind'
Kairissi and Elenchus: XI
Kairissi and Elenchus: XII
Kairissi and Elenchus: XIII
Kairissi and Elenchus: XIV
Kairissi and Elenchus: XV
The “scarcity principle” governs this world of illusion, and therefore we seek in others what we feel is wanting in ourselves; this, in fact, is what passes for love in our present dream world. There can be no greater mistake than confusing love for the "scarcity principle," because love, in its abundance, is incapable of asking for anything.
Editor’s note: The “Course In Miracles” teaches that the dysfunctional ego lives by “the scarcity principle,” that of “I don’t have enough” because “I am not enough”; as such, the ego views others as threats to achieving happiness. The “Course” presents itself as “mind training,” healing from egocentrism, leading to a recovery of “sanity,” the lack of which is the source of all evil in the world. As I study the “Course,” it becomes plain that it is not possible to enter a full-bodied loving relationship with our brothers and sisters in the world until we excise, from our spirits, the cancer of ever seeking for private advantage. Likewise, in this vein, it finally occurred to me that the Course’s teaching is also required before one might gain authentic romantic relationship. Consider again the masthead quotation: What this “dream world of illusion" calls love is merely a seeking, in others, for what we feel to be lacking in ourselves. This inner sense of poverty, reflected in John-and-Mary relationships, is behind the shallow street wisdom of “opposites attract.” In the article, “500 tape-recorded messages from the other side,” we discussed that there are millions of dysfunctional ones over there who live by the ego's dictates, and therefore slowly drift into greater forms of incoherence. The “Course” states that its instruction is not optional information - unless we're content to multiply unhappiness and insanity for our lives. And this is why virtually all – let’s just say all – of the John-and-Mary unions of this world, built upon the “scarcity principle,” enjoy little hope of surviving into the next.
all I want to do is try and find myself
in searching for the way to go I've followed all the rules, the way they say to choose between the wise men and the fools, I listen to the words they say, I read what I should read, I do whatever's right to do, try to be what I should be, someone let me in I think the sky is falling, seems I've gotten lost on my way, all I want to do is try and find myself, come and let me look in your eyes, come and let me look in your eyes, but wisdom isn't underground nor on a mountainside, and where am I to take myself, there's no place here to hide, where can I hide, all across the universe the stars are fading, seems we've gotten lost on our way, all I want to do is try and find myself, come and let me look in your eyes, come and let me look in your eyes, come and let me look in your eyes…
all I want to do is try and find myself, come and let me look in your eyes