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49. Mout avetz faich lonc estatge

You have stayed away for a very long time 

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60 Poems: a curated list selected not merely for fame but because they illuminate the philosophy of love embedded in troubadour lyric culture (c. 1150–1250) as opposed to definitions of love imposed by church and king.

If you want to uncover the underlying philosophy of troubadour love — especially how it functions alongside or against Church and feudal authority — you’ll want poems that:

• Define fin’amor (refined / courtly love)

• Reflect on secrecy, loyalty, merit (pretz), and worth

• Stage debates about love’s ethics (tensons / partimens)

• Critique kings, clergy, or power structures

• Show women’s voices (trobairitz)

• Address Crusade politics and moral authority

• Wrestle with desire vs. spiritual idealization

Mout avetz faich lonc estatge -- Castelloza

I

1. Mout avetz faich lonc estatge,
You have stayed away for a very long time,

2. Amics, pois de mi·us partitz,
friend, since you departed from me,

3. e es mi greu e salvatge,
and it is grievous and harsh for me,

4. car me iuretz e·m plevitz
for you swore and promised me

5. que als iorns de vostra vida
that all the days of your life

6. non acsetz dompna mas me;
you would have no lady but me;

7. e si d’autra vos perte
and if you turn to another woman,

8. m’avetz morta e trahida,
you have killed and betrayed me,

9. c’avi’en vos m’esperanssa
for I placed my hope in you

10. que m’amassetz ses doptanssa.
that you would love me without doubt.

II

1. Bels Amics, de fin coratge
Fair friend, of noble heart,

2. vos amei puois m’abellitz,
I loved you when you pleased me,

3. e sai que fatz hi follatge,
and I know I act foolishly,

4. que plus m’en etz escaritz
for you reject me all the more,

5. c’anc non fis vas vos ganchida;
though I never acted falsely toward you;

6. e si·m fasetz mal per be,
and if you repay good with harm,

7. be·us am e no m’en recre;
I still love you and do not withdraw;

8. mas tant m’a amors sazida
but love has so seized me

9. qu’eu non cre que benananssa
that I do not believe happiness

10. puosc’aver ses vostr’amanssa.
can be mine without your love.

III

1. Mout aurai mes mal usatge
I shall set a very bad example

2. a las autras amairitz,
for other loving women,

3. c’om sol trametre messatge
for they usually send messages

4. e motz triatz e chausitz,
with chosen and refined words,

5. et eu tenc me per garida,
yet I consider myself healed,

6. Amics, a la mia fe,
friend, truly by my faith,

7. qan vos prec, c’aissi·m cove;
when I beseech you, as I must;

8. qe·l plus pros n’es enriquida
for the noblest lady is enriched

9. s’a de vos calc’aondanssa
if she receives from you some grace

10. de baisar o d’acoindanssa.
of kisses or intimacy.

IV

1. Mal ai’eu, s’anc cor volatge
Woe is me, if ever a fickle heart

2. vos aic ni·us fui camiairitz,
I had toward you or was unfaithful,

3. ni drutz de negun paratge
or if I desired any other lover

4. per mi non fo encobitz;
of any rank besides you;

5. anz sui pensiv’e marrida
rather I am sorrowful and troubled

6. car de m’amor no·us sove,
because you do not remember my love,

7. e si de vos iois no·m ve,
and if no joy comes to me from you,

8. tost mi trobaretz fenida;
soon you will find me dead;

9. car per pauc de malananssa
for through a small sorrow

10. mor dompna s’om tot no·il lanssa.
a lady dies if no one relieves her.

V (Tornada)

1. Tot lo maltraich e·l dampnatge
All the mistreatment and harm

2. que per vos m’es escaritz
that I have suffered for your sake

3. vos grazir fan mos lignatge
my family even thanks you for it

4. e sobre totz mos maritz.
and above all, my husband.

5. E s’anc fetz vas mi faillida
And if you ever did me wrong,

6. perdon la·us per bona fe;
I forgive you in good faith;

7. e prec que veingnaz a me
and I ask that you come to me

8. depueis que auretz auzida
after you have heard

9. ma chansson qe·us fai fianssa,
my song which assures you

10. sai trobetz bella semblanssa.
that you will find a fair welcome here.

Completion Status

This is a complete version of the poem, including:

• All five coblas (stanzas)
• The final tornada (stanza V)
• No lines omitted or truncated

Commentary

Paraphrase:
The speaker begins by reproaching her beloved for his long absence. Since he left her, she experiences the separation as painful and even “harsh,” because he once swore promises of exclusive devotion. He had assured her that for the rest of his life he would have no lady except her alone. If he has turned to another woman, she feels utterly destroyed and betrayed, since she had placed all her hope in him and believed he would love her without hesitation or doubt.

She then addresses him as a “noble-hearted friend,” recalling that she loved him when he first pleased her. She admits she may be acting foolishly in continuing to love him, especially since he increasingly rejects her, even though she never deceived him or acted falsely. If he repays her goodness with harm, she nonetheless continues to love him and cannot withdraw. Love has seized her so completely that she cannot imagine happiness existing without his affection.

She reflects bitterly that her behavior now serves as a bad example for other loving women, since they normally send carefully chosen and polished messages. She, however, remains “healed” or steady in her devotion and continues to plead with him out of faithful necessity. She claims that the most noble lady is enriched if she receives even a small favor from him, whether a kiss or intimate companionship.

She then laments that if she ever had a fickle or wandering heart, or if she ever desired any other lover of any rank, she denies it. Instead, she is now sorrowful and distressed because he does not remember her love. If no joy comes from him, she warns that she will soon be found dead, since a lady may die from sorrow if no relief or consolation is given.

In the tornada, she declares that all the suffering and humiliation she has endured for him is so extensive that even her family—and even her husband—appear to “thank” him for it, implying social contradiction or irony in her situation. If he has wronged her, she forgives him sincerely. She asks him to come to her after hearing her song, assuring him that he will find a welcoming and beautiful reception.

Note:

In the tornada she says, in effect: all the harm and suffering she has endured because of this “Amics” is so extreme that even her lignage (family line, kin group) and even her maritz (husband) seem to “thank” him for it.

On the surface, that sounds paradoxical—why would people close to her be grateful for her suffering? The key is that this is not meant as literal gratitude. It is a rhetorical compression of several courtly tensions at once.

First, in the social world of Castelloza (early 1200s Occitania), a married noblewoman’s public identity is tightly bound to family honor and marital arrangement. If she is also engaged in an extramarital courtly attachment (even if it is “only” poetic or emotional), that creates a structural contradiction: her private devotion to the lover and her public role in marriage cannot be reconciled cleanly.

So when she says her family and husband “thank” him, she is likely pointing to one of these ironic possibilities:

• Irony of social benefit: her emotional fixation on this lover may keep her within acceptable courtly behavior rather than more disruptive rebellion. In that twisted sense, the system “uses” the affair as a contained outlet.
• Emotional displacement: her suffering for the lover is so consuming that it absorbs attention that might otherwise destabilize household or kin relations. The family “benefits” indirectly from her being occupied by this coded, socially legible form of desire.
• Courtly hypocrisy exposed: courtly love poetry pretends to be private and elevated, but it is still embedded in a family economy of marriage, alliances, and reputation. The “thanks” exposes that contradiction—private emotional torment is not actually separate from public social order.
• Rhetorical exaggeration (most important): troubadour tornadas often intensify feeling through paradox. Saying “even my husband thanks you” is a way of pushing emotional extremity to the edge of social logic. It signals: my situation is so inverted that even the natural opponents of this relationship are, paradoxically, folded into it.

So the irony is not just humor or contradiction—it is structural. She is revealing that courtly love is not a clean escape from social reality; it is a system that sits inside marriage and kinship and quietly depends on them while pretending to transcend them.

Put simply: she is showing that the lover is not outside her social world at all—he is entangled in it so deeply that even the people who should oppose him are rhetorically absorbed into the emotional economy he creates.

Again:

When she says her family and even her husband “thank” the lover, she does not mean they are literally grateful.

She is saying something like this:

Because of this lover, she has suffered so much emotionally that it has become a kind of known situation in her household and family life.

So instead of causing a scandal that disrupts everything, her love-suffering has become something everyone has learned to live with.

Now the key idea:

• Her family and husband would normally be angry about her attachment to another man.
• But in this poetic exaggeration, she says it is as if they are “grateful” because:
  • it is contained (it stays in the realm of poetry and emotion, not open rebellion),
  • it gives her a socially recognizable “role” (the sorrowful noblewoman in love),
  • and it does not produce an open break in the household.

So “they thank him” really means:

“Even the people who should be against this situation act as if they accept it, because it has become a contained, socially manageable form of suffering.”

One more way to put it very simply:

She is saying:

“My love for him has become so established that even my household has learned to live with it, as if it is part of the normal order now.”

And the tone is still ironic and bitter: she is also implying that this “acceptance” is not happiness—it is just everyone tolerating a painful situation.

Glossary:
• estatge – stay, absence, or period of being away
• amics – “friend,” but in troubadour usage often “beloved”
• greu – heavy, grievous, emotionally painful
• salvatge – harsh, wild, unbearable
• jurar / iuretz – to swear an oath
• plevitz – promised, pledged
• dompna – lady, noble woman (often idealized)
• trahida – betrayed
• esperanssa – hope, expectation of fulfillment
• ses doptanssa – without doubt or hesitation
• fin coratge – noble heart, refined emotional character
• abellitz – pleased, attracted, desired
• follatge – foolishness, irrational behavior
• escaritz – rejected, repulsed, pushed away
• ganchida – deceitful, false, treacherous behavior
• recre – withdraw, retreat emotionally
• sazida – seized, captured (by love)
• benananssa – happiness, good fortune
• amairitz – women who love (lovers, female participants in fin’amor)
• messatge – message, poetic or literal communication
• triatz / chausitz – carefully selected, refined
• acoindanssa – favor, intimacy, sexual or emotional favor
• volatge – fickle, unstable
• camiairitz – unfaithful, morally straying
• drutz – lover (often secret or illicit lover)
• marrida – troubled, sorrowful, distressed
• iois – joy
• fenida – finished, dead
• malananssa – suffering, distress, sorrow
• dampnatge – harm, damage, loss
• lignatge – family line, kin group
• maritz – husband

Historical note:
Castelloza is a trobairitz, one of the rare female Occitan lyric poets active in the early 1200s (circa 1200s–1220s). Her poems come from the culture of southern French courts where aristocratic love poetry (fin’amor) was performed as a sophisticated literary art. This poem reflects the courtly environment of Occitania before the full devastation of the Albigensian Crusade (1209–1229), when aristocratic culture was still flourishing but already under pressure.

What is especially notable here is the frank emotional intensity: Castelloza’s voice is unusually direct for courtly lyric, combining the stylized conventions of love service with near-confessional anguish. The mention of her “husband” in the tornada highlights the tension between public marriage and private courtly devotion—a structural paradox in troubadour culture.

Author:
Castelloza was a noblewoman from the Auvergne region, likely active in the early 13th century (early 1200s). Only four of her songs survive, all addressed to the same “Amics,” a male beloved whose identity is unknown and possibly literary rather than historical. Her work survives in chansonniers—manuscript songbooks compiled in the 13th and 14th centuries that preserved troubadour poetry long after its performance culture declined. She is one of the few female voices in medieval European lyric tradition, and her poems are among the most emotionally direct in the troubadour corpus.

Modern connection (very short):
The poem reads like emotional dependency framed as devotion—recognizable today in modern patterns of unbalanced relationships where longing overrides self-protection.

Deeper significance of love:
In early troubadour tradition (late 1000s–early 1100s), love is often stylized as service: the lover is a vassal to an elevated, idealized lady, and desire is disciplined into ritualized admiration. Over time—especially by the early 1200s, when Castelloza is writing—this system begins to fracture internally.

What changes here is the direction of emotional weight:

• Earlier troubadour model:
  Love = controlled devotion, social refinement, restraint, praise of an idealized lady, emotional distance maintained through formality.
• Castelloza’s moment (this poem):
  Love = psychological urgency, personal abandonment, emotional suffering, jealousy, and a collapsing boundary between idealization and lived pain.

In other words, what begins as a courtly system of elevated desire regulated by etiquette becomes, in voices like Castelloza’s, something closer to psychological exposure: love is no longer simply a social performance but an inner condition that overwhelms agency.

Her version also subtly reverses gendered expectations of the tradition. In much troubadour poetry, the male lover serves an ideal lady; here a female poet articulates the consuming vulnerability of that position, showing that the “courtly game” is not emotionally neutral—it produces real instability, longing, and dependence.

So the evolution can be summarized as:
love as disciplined social code → love as destabilizing interior experience

Castelloza stands near that turning point, where the architecture of courtly love begins to reveal its emotional cost.